GoodBye......

It took a lot longer than it probably should have --
but it's finally happened
I'm done.
The day has come to an end;
the sun is over my head --
my .............husband/companion got me in a mess of trouble again.
But no more.
No more empty smiles.
No more time wasted wondering.

Just when you think that you're alright
I'm calling out from the inside

I never heard anyone
I never listen at all..

It's not that I don't think you're appealing or chariming and attractive to me anymore,because we both know that I do.
Your eyes are still huge and so expressive, like a baby's!
your smile magnetic.

But you don't see me the way that I wish you would,
and for whatever reason it's finally dawning on me that you never really will!
In all the years we have been together and known each other i kept hoping to get a response from you sometimes, anytime!
But........you were always too busy , in your own world to notice me!
MAybe you just took me for granted ....
who knows?
I believe that you are honestly glad to see me,
sometimes
But more and more I think it's because of the fact that i am your son's mother or simply because you married me and we had sort of a relationship for nine years.......; instead of any sort of interest in who I am as an individual.

Not that you aren't capable of it, not that there weren't things we could have shared -- but that more and more the obvious has become clear, and there's just no room for anything else.
It's a strange thing to say and I wish it weren't the case --
but this is where you belong, this is how you are, and always will be.

Almost as if for some reason that I'll never understand,
this is where and how you want to be, and remain.

There is something about the personality involved, that I just don't bring, and frankly never want to learn.

Just stay away from people whome you might think have your best interests at heart but........probably have caused you more damage,harm,heartacke and suffering than u could have ever predicted or imagineg for the long run!

I can only advice you, try to guide you, but can and never will push you to do something against your will!
I would much rather you use your own itellect and brains, rather than being a football of other people's opinions, specially when it comes to your personal life situations and matters!

At the end all i can say is.................................
You can't save someone who doesn't want to be rescued ,any more than you can open a cage door and expect the tiger to just come walking out!

I never heard anyone
I never listen at all.

You can only be grateful for the time you've spent in the cage together.

Goodbye, my beloved, my husband....hope you can move on now; put the bad memories, and past behind and pick up the pieces of your heart and start afresh!
I will always be there for you whenever you need me, or even a shoulder to cryon! I will always think of you and love you the way i have always....and wish you no harm ever!

I sincearly hope we can start a new relationship from now on, called "friendship" and base it on total trust , loyalty and devotion this time!
Hear it for the last time......

your Shui.