My Mask..

This smile that I wear,

it can be deceiving.

Little do you know what I am feeling inside.

I can mask what is really going on underneath.

I don't want to wear this mask,

but sometimes
it's easier.

Easier to just keep it all inside.
I am a truthful person.

So sometimes I feel
I am lying by not revealing what is there.
I also think that if I let it out,

the reality of it
will set in.

Do I want to face it?
I guess not.
Not yet.
I don't feel it's healthy to keep it bottled up.
But that's what I do knowing one day it
will surface.
Until then I wear my mask
and try to hide it.
Some days are much easier
than others.
One day my mask will no longer
be able to cover it any longer.
I know I will not
be able to stand to wear
the awful mask anymore.