Life is relatively okay, remarkably. I don't know what happened. All the agony of "being alone" has vanished!Maybe it really is better to be alone than unhappily attached... and it seems that most of my "attachments" come with an unhappy streak.... :-(
Well, whatever.... I'm genuinely happy.
Although i have to admit..., a really sad time to be living alone is when you're sick and ill in bed.
Still -- its not as bad as having an uncaring partner!
Essential is, of course, the network of friends.
okay, i could have used someone to hug and pet me and feel sorry for me that I'm so miserable... but it's okay like this.
It gets lonely sometimes.... okay, it gets lonely alot! Especially right after when there was somebodyin your life earlier...maybe for sometime also and now there is nobody!
It's hard to tell myself (and believe) that there is "nothing missing, nothing wrong here."
So.....
I started writing down five things that were great about my day before i went to bed every night; except that after about four days of doing that, i couldn't stand my own bullshit anymore, gave it up and went back where i really didn't want to go -- crying myself to sleep.
But it worked..... I guess ,feel much better now. Honestly!
I still stick to my opinion though....that..
Honest misery is much more tolerable than pretend-happiness!!!!
Well, whatever.... I'm genuinely happy.
Although i have to admit..., a really sad time to be living alone is when you're sick and ill in bed.
Still -- its not as bad as having an uncaring partner!
Essential is, of course, the network of friends.
okay, i could have used someone to hug and pet me and feel sorry for me that I'm so miserable... but it's okay like this.
It gets lonely sometimes.... okay, it gets lonely alot! Especially right after when there was somebodyin your life earlier...maybe for sometime also and now there is nobody!
It's hard to tell myself (and believe) that there is "nothing missing, nothing wrong here."
So.....
I started writing down five things that were great about my day before i went to bed every night; except that after about four days of doing that, i couldn't stand my own bullshit anymore, gave it up and went back where i really didn't want to go -- crying myself to sleep.
But it worked..... I guess ,feel much better now. Honestly!
I still stick to my opinion though....that..
Honest misery is much more tolerable than pretend-happiness!!!!
5 comments:
I like that... Honest misery is much more tolerable than pretend-happiness. I wish all those fallen ppl out there could look at the truth and stop drowning themselves in the misery of pretend-happiness. All the best for u, and yeah, life is really okay! ;-)
Thanks! Wish you all the best too! And do drop by again...'passerby'.
:-)
Well, as u read this, u probably knew that I have already "kept" u somewhere in my bookmarks, and by that means i shall drop by "infrequently"... hehe.. maybe not, as i am already making my second visit here as i "wrote". haha.. human, such a changeable beings. ;-P
Cheers! Be strong! Life is beautiful!!
Hmmmm :-)
:-)
Be happy...
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