Sorrows Underneath....

I think of all my problems.
I think of all my pain.
I think of all my sorrow,
Until I go insane.
I think of all the smiles I've worn,
Which hide sorrows underneath.
No one seems to notice,
That I go through so much grief.
My tears seem to keep flowing,
Inside my tired eyes.
Each time I want to tell you,
My words come out as lies.
These days I'm feeling distant,
Far away and weak.
My sadness pulls me further,
From the happiness I seek.
I've just begun to realize,
That my hopes and dreams are gone,
I'm walking down a dead-end road,
Humming a tuneless song.
I'm standing on a rooftop,
Although I'm scared of heights,

I'm watching the cars beneath me move,
And somehow this doesn't feel right.
Now I think of what I'm doing,
I know I should find a way,
To beat through my depression,
Will I be able to someday?
Someone might be there,
To help me make it through,
Maybe they will listen,
And tell me what to do.
I'm seeing thrugh the darkness,
And I'm starting to trust a few,
I think I'll try to make it,
So I can be there for them, too.



You smile. You laugh. You hold back all the tears. You wear a smiling and happy mask just so they wouldn't know.You don't want them to know because you know they wouldn't understand, anyway. You know they would just laugh and make a fun out of it all or you know that even if they would understand they wouldn't really make an effort because they have no choice. You tried once, but nothing happened.You don't know what to do. You don't know whom to turn to. You are all alone now. You are lost.You talk to Him, but He doesn't seem to hear you. You distance yourself from Him then.You hide. You lay yourself on your bed. You cry. You sob. You wail. You scream, but nobody hears you. You try to sleep so you could forget. You wake up, and yes, it's still there.