shifting through boxes
looking through the past
relationships that didn't make it
friendships that did not last
familiar names
but so many lost along the way
letters, greetingcards
they once remembered my birthday
of those who remain
we're no longer that close
the innocence of yesteryears
is but a friendly ghost
words betray us
we were supposed to stick together
but we drifted apart
even in perfect weather
but that's just life
bits and pieces we're left with
and if we retaliate
we lose our belief
every envelope recreates
another street in memory lane
even if i could turn back time
i know, nothing would have changed....!
2 comments:
I feel that you do not know what you are looking for and what you want. You do not know what life is. You are so undecided. In the beginning you had a lover in your stories other than your husband and now you say you love your husband.
I am a single woman and was first impressed with your site. But now it is truly boring. Such an undecided woman. You do not seem to understand what marriage is.
I am single, but my dream of a happy marriage and a good partner is not only the emotional and sexual love. It is making a home and loving all in it. But your site talks only of love to you and not even the other way round.
So young lady decide what you want in life.
Thank you my single friend for your very generious comments on my blog posting.
I am glad that someone out there is keeping a close on my postings or me, ;-) to drop their advice and maybe even feel like giving their piece of mind to me! Its okay, i take it in all good spirit and thank you for it; for after all what are good people and friends in life for if they do not point out yr vices, and ask you to make corrections if they feel its needed and required to do so!?
Now comming to the comments you had written without trying to sound, defensive; its very easy to pass judgements on others, and very easy to see point and even condemn n critisize the other persons falts and drawbacks if you see them; but its only becauseyou YOU are not THEM u see? You cannot feel the pain, sufforing and misery they have gone through in their lives.....beacuse you have not experienced it yourself right?
Yes its true.....my blogs are very self centered, i dont deny the fact, there is no doubt about it! But then it is and was meant to be an online personal/diary you know, where you write mostly [most of the time] about'yourself' 'your experiences' in life, 'your feelings', etc etc...
I am by no means trying to preach or teach anyone here; just sharing what i feel from inside. Sometimes they are happy and sometimes they happen to be sad, and very depressing, but then thats ME! its my feeligs and my emotions.....
No two people are same in the world; and hat might seem right to you wrong to me and what might seem wrong to me the other way to you!
Unhappiness cannot be measured in terms of who's unhappiness is bigger and heavier, because what might seem the ultimate to me, according to someone elses persception could be very little you see? It all depends upon how you look and view at things!
As for the husband issue......is there really a hard and fast rule that just because someone makes a mistake, you STOP loving them? It is true i have cribbed and cried alot over some of the things that have cause me pain due to him but....if you read some of the postings......of dec, jan and some of feb' you will realize that i have also learnt to Forgive him, and accept him the way he is! I believe that whatever misteakes one makes, sometimes they do things without even realizing it; the recuppuctions etc etc.....and by the time they do, its already too late!
Perhaps that has happened to me also, as i am sure it has to him aswell! But them what to do, this is life, and its all about picking up the piecies and starting all over again; as long as one learns and grows from their mistakes...that is the main thing!
Lastly without boring you any further.....if i amy give you one small advice of mine also....?
If you dont know the full story about something, its better to keep quiet and not say anything instead of commenting on something you dont have a clue about!
Every man , human being is selfish to some extent, and i am no exception; but i would like to add that i also have a heart, and a soul, and im not a machine. I breath, feel, get hurt etc.
If you knew where my pain was comming from probably you would get a slightly better idea and picture of things dear.
Mariage is a beautiful thing! I too had many dreams, like every other female....but for some people it works, and for some people no matter how hard they try or put effort into it....unfortunatly it still doesnt work and fails miserably.
I developed feelings for my friend for the very reason coz i was lonely; but somehwre deep down in my heart, i always knew i loved my husband and always will!
Things drastically took a nasty turn when he ran away with my babyboy, without telling me.........and i was left for a couple of months, wondering if they would ever come back or not!!!!
It was never my idea to breakup or get seperated or diviroced in the first place but.........destiny and fate had something else in mind!
So you see............its not all simple and clear cut as you put it my friend. Life is just not simply BLACK OR WHITE, there are so many shades of grey inbetween also.
As for " dont know what i want" .....perhaps not, maybe i dont know....maybe i still yet have to discover and find that out, which i am trying so hard to these days [believe u me!]
I might find it, then again i might never; but thats something i have to leave fate and God to decide for me.
I just know that i am a good human being, caring and very down to earth, and i have a beautiful spirit........i want to make others happy and also for myself to live a sort of happy and stress free life from now on...{with or without a husband is irrelivant}
Personally i thing i have come to realize one thing though...........Happiness is never in the hands of another person, no other person can bring you joy and happiness except yourself! So please do not make the mistake of giving someone else the power to hurt you and destroy you!
Happiness is a STATE OF MIND and can be found anywhere, anytime, whether single, coupled, or married!
Oh and please dear friend..........if you so find my blog posts....Boring now' you are most welcome to not visit it again okay???
I am happy that you stayed and kept on visiting till now...........and thank you for all your comments; but i am sorry to say.........it is my blogspace after all, and i cannot change my writings because some "one person" happenes to think they are getting boring now! Now can i!?[ i wasnt even aware there were so many ppl silently visiting my site anyway!
Wish you all the best for whenever you get married........ad yea you do have to work at it; but most of all the friendship and communication and honestly should be there; then nothing can shake you!!!! Oh and last but not least..........the most imp thing! If one sucks as a husband and wife, doens t necessarily mean they cannot be good friends!!!! The world is a complex, multudimentional place to live in; and the human mind even more complex and complicated to understand and comprehend.
All the best for your future.
Take care God bless
Rosie.
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