Promises are made to be broken.

It was just so wonderful.
when we lived in a world of our own.
when it was only all about the two of us.
no one else.
It was just so perfect.
P-E-R-F-E-C-T
until all these things happened.
and now i dont see him making any effort
in keeping the relationship going.
I AM trying hard.
not to let this relationship we have now become history.
As much as i am capable of now, considering my health conditions...
well i guess promises are made to be broken huh.
It had proven me wrong.
lotsa times.
and im sick of hearing promises from anyone now.
cuz i dont wanna risk being upset again.
over some stupid promises.
like it or not,i just gotta wait.
for a long, long time.
before he says anything.
before he finally makes a decision.
well,i wont go on saying that im already a big girl.
not gonna go mad and sad over such matters.
Yes,i am scared,afraid,
there is fear in me.
and who knows when im gonna go crazy.
i dont wanna wait too.
i want him to make a decision.
i dont wanna think about this matter every single day.
wondering how he's doing,
wondering how our relationship's progressing.
or rather whether it has a chance to progress.
yea,it sucks.totally.
but do i have a choice?
well,
no.
i dont have a say in this matter.
he calls the shots and gets to make all the decisions always!.
all i can do is wait and see.
just like everyone says.
Well perhaps.......if he drags this too long......
I just might end up making a decision;
and can't necessarily say or comment if it will be the right one or wrong one!
So dont push me baby! I have a brain that functions too.....a mind that thinks too
Uptill now has had sane and good thoughts but....if pushed and shoved to a corner
can play dirty too! Just he way you said it the other day......!!!!!!!
So hurry....pls hurry up!